These have been the darker days of Covid 19. The whole world breathes heavy and labored for air now in various ways. The lofty world goals have been forced to fall and simple ones remain: to breathe, to eat, to find hope, light and health again. maybe even laugh again. Many are sick and hospitalized, some suffer financially, some from aching loneliness, some from the imprisonment within 4 walls of hard circumstances at home, some suffer from holding too tight to lesser light that can never give fully or free fully... like He can....the lists goes on. I suffer from many of these.
Nevertheless, there is a beauty to this darkness. It is revealing the need for Light. I've only found one source of Light...and i am forever changed and greatFULL to have found it. Jesus..His Word..His Light that dispels the darknesses of the world...the One my heart longs for..the One that says "even darkness isn't dark to Him" Psalm 139:12. The One that warms, the One that says when i am WITH Him...darkness will have to flee....Stay by us oh Lord. Cause our hearts to stay near.
Each day i wake to a world with both: Dark and Light. I tend to focus on one or the other. It gets harder to focus on the light....when the darkness is pressing in...a darkness i can almost feel lately like a heavy fog blanket being laid upon me. If it covers me fully...even then, the Word says...darkness is not dark to HIM. As for hope...sometimes the light is just a sliver in the corner. But it's enough to illuminate. It's enough to set my eyes in focus. It is enough. "The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it" John 1:5
Darker Days photo shoot with my family...inspired by the light.
Tuesday, June 30, 2020
Thursday, September 28, 2017
Shedding the Sweater
I don't really want to shed it. This sweater of raising young children. I say it's like a sweater because it's warm and enveloping..comforting and constant- itchy and foreign and red-faced frustrating at times, but so near and surrounding. I've been needed, life or death needed! I've had a steady job that i will always love...and grown stronger. They've tugged at my sleeve and made me laugh, cuz the Lord knows, there's no time to cry. It's been hands on and wonderfully worrisome. My heart cares cavern -deep for these creatures. I've been less lonely, dancing in this spacious place with the delights of my heart. They've become my home, but i won't always be theirs, and this is hard. and this is good.
These boys keep growing. My mama- job keeps changing.
I'm in mourning, I'm feeling excitement...i'm naked and unsure what to put on after sweater season. The boys venture greater lengths away from my side. I am taking deeper breaths, releasing their fingertips reluctantly so they can become the little men they are supposed to be.
Monday, August 7, 2017
After the boys of summer have gone....
I love the song "boys of summer" by Don Henley....so good..Painting pictures of summer nostalgia and sun kissed romance fading...with the running percussion heart beat and seagull electric guitar licks..i sing it at the top of my lungs. When school starts i feel this in my bones..the summer nostalgia. New things are ahead, but there is mourning for what was. Here i remember our 2017 summer. Thank you God for every sun-kissed bit of it. We soaked it all in.....and carry it with us.
Amos's Allstar game
Predators Fever
Father's Day....
Amos's Allstar game
Bennett's team (the underdogs) get 2nd place
The New ( used) Jeep comes into the family
Saying goodbye to the Chickadees class with Linda
Izzy catches a lightning bug
Predators Fever
Father's Day....
Visiting Dondon and TB and cousins
Monster Trucks with the The Fowlers
Garden harvest
The Gauses on the boat
The Burdens on the boat
The Peters
Bennett wrote us a letter
Staying with Dondon and TB
Kevin and I lead worship at Coaches Honor marriage Retreat
Amy's Lake House
Flour war with Grandpa
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