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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Fuel for Fire


I will describe today like a warm campfire, leaving me smelling smokey and feeling hopeful. And to top it off, there is more fuel beside the campfire.

Its been a while since i felt hopeful past the mundane activities of the day...my campfire has been smoldering too long. i dont know why or what my problem is! Maybe lots of mom's feels this way? Perhaps its depression? lack of sleep? Just who i am in this season...All of the above.....

Dont get me wrong, in the midst of it all...i am completely in LOVE with my boys...they give me genuine smiles from my gut lots of the day.....but still...im a longing creature

Today there was some Fuel For Fire:

1. FUEL FOR FIRE #1 - THE TREE and KEVIN
Kevin cut down two trees in our back yard last night...giving us much fuel for Fire...( literally)
I love this man...he is so good to me.. creative and full of new surprises. Tonight we get a date with friends ( no kids)...ahhhh, and not to mention he let me sleep in this morning. FUEL FOR FIRE!

2.FUEL FOR FIRE # 2 COFFEE (NOT DECAF), Pancake Pantry PANCAKES and GOOD CONVERSATION
Sometimes a mama needs some time away...to hear stories other than the ones within her own walls....to re-fuel the fire....to get perspective. To drink lots of coffee and talk nonsense...and sense. This morning there was both...a conversation of laughter and no importance and one of MUCH importance. Possible employment in the future and i dared to dream impossible dreams for myself..not just for my kids. Also its weird how listening to another persons story can remind you that GOD gives sometimes with such WILD abandon and intimacy with no strings attached. GOd is loving on this person so much. It didnt make me jelous..it made me hopeful that He will do the same for me...and is...it just looks different... FUEL FOR FIRE

3. FUEL FOR FIRE # 3- The KIDS

Even though one screams for me now....i am fueled to scoop him up and be the one to make it all better by holding and hugging him ( sometimes its not that easy of course....I am more proud of being a mom to these two than of any other accomplishment this far. I never saw that statement coming....FUEL FOR FIRE.....

2 comments:

Kellie Lutito said...

Love this! Thanks for sharing Mandy. Loved hearing from you last night :)

vanessa said...

you have accomplished SO very much. two little ones are starring you in the face as proof. everyday.
i sure wish i could sip coffee w/ you @ pancake pantry. i am jealous. but, i love you & am hopeful that we will soon chat face to face again soon.

xoxo